insane frustrating confusing quite a day! In the morning I was filled with nervous energy waiting for a pretty important phone call (a life changing phone call really) and couldn’t really focus on one task. I managed to put that to good use by cleaning my office… Something that was long overdue.
The Hubs and I are in charge of this years spiritual retreat, an annual camp we do with anywhere from 150-200 guys. So yesterday morning, after my office was done, I started putting together the chorus books for the weekend. And I was waiting for this call.
I walked around the warehouse, chatting with the guys. And I waited. I checked out the auction area, and then my storage area to see if I could boost the auction product with anything from there. And then I waited. I talked to my program director about how his case load was going. and then I waited. I scheduled a donation pick up for my house this weekend, and … Yep… Then I waited. Signed some checks, waited. Sorted some stuff out with our GS, waited. You get the idea, I’m sure.
The phone call never came.
12:45 I went with The Hubs to a specialist appointment to try and figure out what’s wrong with him. Words like biopsy and scope were thrown around, and… I was still waiting.
By this time our phone was ringing, but not with the call we were waiting for. Our phones were blowing up with friends, family, co-workers and peers all wanting to know “what in the world is going on?”. I’ve got to admit that it was hard, it was bittersweet. It hurt to be in the position of suddenly ” out of the loop”, but it meant so much to hear those other people echo our own thoughts.
So anyways, after some tears and some other stuff I won’t bore you with, we did eventually get a phone call at the close of business. We don’t know a whole lot more then we originally did, but the waiting could stop.. or… Change.
I don’t have a lot more to say about it right now, except that the events, or lack there of, gave me a lot to think about.
I will leave you with this thought I shared with The Hubs through tears yesterday.
Fighting injustice, being the voice of those who cannot speak for themselves, and standing up to be known when something isn’t right… Those are qualities I have been raised with. My parents before me, with the same struggles, it’s all I’ve ever known. Sexism, classism, racism, ageism, prejudice of any kind makes me sick to my stomach and wherever possible, I take a stand. When there is a person hurting, I will stand with them, and I will fight for them. Would someone do the same for me?
Reach deep inside and find something your passionate about, and take a stand. It won be easy, and you may feel like you should have just taken the easy way out. But in those moments of heart break, when everything feels like its crumbling around you, you’ll find inner peace knowing no matter what, you stood!